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Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Holiday = homework + extra activities + revision for exams that will start when school reopen
Homework= chinese project + history project + project work + miscellaneous mundane homework
Extra activities = kayaking + research + BrooksRun + dunno what party + CCA
Taken from reference of the Oxford Dictionary,
Holiday = day(s) of recreation
Recreation = pastime/ relaxation
Well, i take it that from what was written above, you got a rough idea of what's happening during my june holiday? Good, cos i dont really think i've the time to update this blog these few days.
Happy holidays everyone!
7:32 PM
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Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I'm an idiot...a total fool in total mess...
Yup, you did not read it wrong-I'm an idiot
I've should have listened to my own instincts and followed my heart.
Now, I'm living in regret with a demoralized heart.
I was never the sort of person who can survive the pressures of being in college. Neither do i have the strong determination of entering a university.
Now is my final chance...
Withdraw before the week is out, get into a course i've never planned for and stray away from this traumatizing experience, OR wait for another terribly long 6 months in college to withdraw, have a better chance of entering the course of my true passion and pray that i wouldn't do anything stupid to de-stress...
Well, many would ask... how bad can it be?
Plainly speaking, i got plenty of U-(ungraded) and no passes for my term one CA1. In addition, i've got plenty of criticism from teachers... Pathetic isn't it?
I can blame no one else but me...cos I'm the one who brought it upon myself...
6:47 PM
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Sunday, April 26, 2009
If there's one thing i've learnt from being in college for the past 2 months, that would be that i just can't live without fun and childish games. To me, it seems as if I'm living in a world of black and white, with on occasions, shades of grey.
This may seem immature, but i do really miss the times i can get away with silly mistakes and not get frown upon and get those :" you're a young adult now, grow up!' speeches. I too miss the times i can immerse myself into fiction books and music that seems to transport you to an ideal world of your own.
I truly do feel isolated from the things happening around me most of the time and perhaps i brought it on me to a certain extent. True, more often than not, i try to block out any hope for a long conversation with most people and show an expressionless face that always seem to mislead others into thinking I'm grumpy.
Just last friday i woke up with a painful headache and a realization that I'm late for school. I decided to use the headache as an excuse to miss school and get a MC. Technically, i didn't really played truancy.[i woke up late but with a headache :p] I told the doctor the exact symptoms i had and guess what? She told me that it was due to my ongoing lack of sleep...
Well, that explains my recent headaches attacks...
P.S. Do not learn from me! [Even if you do, don't do it so often. It'll raise eyebrows you know! ]
After my polyclinic visit, i decide to head off to causeway point and witnessed so many changes. With it came a realization that a slower pace of life has it advantages and it suited me better than to bury myself with work...
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Something i found fun to ponder upon...
Never let your pet see you misbehaving: no one knows precisely how god obtains the information he uses to make his judgements.
2:16 PM
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Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I hate School!
I hate School!
I hate School!
I hate School!
I hate School!
I hate School!
I hate School!
I hate School!
I hate getting the 'below expectation' grade every time!
I hate the physic subject!
I hate that i couldn't even get a mere passing grade!
I hate myself for wasting my time and money in college!
I hate myself for not appealing out earlier!
I hate that I'm not making progress!
I hate myself for not getting enough sleep!
I hate that I'm writing everything that i hate cos it signals that I'm going insane!
I hate that I'm missing my friends' encouragement and presence!
I hate to know that the word 'stress' is greeting me every time!
I hate this life!
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Take the above chunk and multiply it by 10 or more, cos i think it's not enough either...
7:29 PM
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Thursday, April 9, 2009
It would seem as time stretches,
the ties that bond us unravels ever faster.
As i crave for companionship,
i seem to get less than mere nil...
Our years together total to...well, nothing.
From One i see spilt to three,
From indulgence in truth to mass gossip trade...
To thou i ask,
is there really forgiveness in thee?
In my heart i ponder,
am i really worth that much?
not a poetry i stress!...
just random thoughts brimming in head...
9:34 PM
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Sunday, March 29, 2009
An extract from the book, Thanks for the memories written by Cecelia Ahern.
I immediately wrote this down when i came across this in the book. The meaning of what this extract entails has been bothering me for quite some time- It's familiar yet distant...
Somehow, it kinda explained my thoughts and feelings that i've had for the past few days. Something for me to ponder about...
10:24 PM
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That's quite sad! You actually had tough moments in your school!(Reviewing your entire blog) What can i say?加油 !! Never submit to your frail side! and before you knew it,6 months will pass in a flash...and you are actually half-way through!
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April 1, 2009 9:21 PM
Saturday, March 28, 2009
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Monday, March 23, 2009
Just so you know, many events have happened since I last blogged…
Events like the Celebrating Values Day at Yishun Junior College for fund raising, Mr Raj’s 33rd birthday at Sembawang Park where we played the game 007, my interview for June’s Oversea CIP trip whereas the results will be out within this week [not that I care whether I made the list or not anymore since I’ve given up on it], the 2008 Bike Rally around Singapore-128 km to be exact- which I did not complete due to my lack of stamina and determination and last of all, my final decision for my future at Yishun JC.
I’ve done a lot of thinking lately, -actually; I’ve a lot of sleepless nights namely now in the middle of the night- and I’ve came to a decision that I’ll give upon college by the end of the year. I mean, I know I’ll fail my end of year promotional examinations and of course the ‘A’ levels mother tongue examination, in which I found out that the registration will be in coming May. I’ve reflected time and again what I am and what I’m really capable of doing. Turns out, I’m not as strong as I thought I was…
Many a time, I find myself crying in the middle of the night or even halfway through a difficult question, crying about how stressed out I am in college and how incapable I am. I even find myself staring into my bedroom’s ceiling every night because I just have too many things on my mind to be able to sleep. I started to realise that I’m just not strong enough to climb and win this steep uphill battle…
Everyday, I go to college and meet people of a different kind from the people I used to interact with. I find comfort and peace of mind with the school cats…then again, it’s just my wishful thinking- the school cats are only too happy to get away from me since I keep disturbing them from their afternoon nap…
Since I’ll be leaving the college at the end of this year if I fail my promos, I guess I should not feel so stressed out. You know, it’s best to start a new year with a fresh beginning. So after my promos, I’ll be researching on the type of course I really want to pursue and join the JAE exercise for that particular poly course that I really want…
i think this should be it, no more i try agin after promos... i can't take it no more
4:30 AM
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Saturday, March 7, 2009
I had a 4 days 3 nights [26 feb- 1 march 09] adventure camp at Bintan,Indonesia and it was rather fun and enriching...
For the first day, we conquered mount. Gunung Bintan and went on to a beach resort where we'll be staying for the following days. I bet y'all would be thinking that we stayed in the luxury rooms there right? Sorry to disappoint y'all but instead of that, we were base at the further end of the resort where we had to pitch our tents and sleep in them. Much to the other's horror, the design of the temporary showering quarters is such that there's no such thing as a cubicle for one. It really just an enclosed big area where shower heads are lined along the walls only. [Meaning: no privacy] And of course, the male and female quarters are all separated. [just in case anyone got the wrong idea...] The toilet cubicles are enclosed but they are not flush-friendly. We have to manually wash our business away. The only problem i face was: my tent mates are damn quiet and the others around me are damn interruptive! [ Imagine this: some idiots are chit-chatting into the night, resulting in noise pollution and in the morning, they complaint about the short hours of sleep they were given! Come on people, use some common sense!]
We woke up at 5.15am the next day for breakfast and clean up. And guess what happen, our class was really,really late and we only got about 5 mins to eat-this does not exclude the time we've to wash our utensils and queue for food. [Anyway, this is already the past. I don't hold any grudges...] Afterwards, we travelled to a village where they were to help the locals plant mangroves, paint their homes and also interact and learn their culture.
And it was there when i was told of this story: In the past, the locals depended on the charcoal factory there to earn a income. In a day, they can only earn S$2.50 each which is barely enough to support their family. However, the authorizes closed down the factory because they cut down too much of the mangroves. Hence, the locals had to resort to fishing which did not earn them as much income as before. Thereafter, the local came up with a project to reforest the mangroves so that the charcoal factory can be back to business again...
The thing that left me a huge impression was the local kids. I noticed that they did not have any footwear on, their clothes were all very old and some were already tattered. Despite this, they still could have a great time playing with us. A couple of friends including me approach the kids to teach them various games and had a whale of a time! We played hide and seek, hen & eagle and soccer! You should have been there, they were so adorable!
The third day we went dragon boating after breakfast and came in 2nd in the race. Afterwards, we had a couple of group games and a gala dinner. [Not to mention, that's the best dinner i had since i came to camp!!] The best part was the end of the campfire where it drizzled when the principle came up to talk and when she came to the main topic at hand, it poured! [Talk about great timing!]
And it keeps on getting better! It rained so badly that they were forced to relocate our sleeping location to an air-conditioned hall! [HURRAY! It's also the first time all of us can sleep in comfort even though it was on the cold, hard floor! 'Civilization!',some even commented when they entered the hall.]
Quite frankly, it was only a 3 day camp because the last day was only us traveling back to singapore on the ferry... Thank goodness for that! Because by the time i got back to my home, i was too exhausted to do anything...
3:00 PM
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Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Oh man... Just look at the time this post was posted!
Sorry, i didn't update my blog for such a long time. Seems to me that JC life is not that simple as what others say. I've to stay up late to catch up with all my lesson notes and assignments. One very good example is right now,while I'm writing up this post. [i haven even finish all of my work yet!] I've even got an overdue assignment that is not even three quarter done yet...(Cai Ning is seriously going to kill me for this...)
Secondly, JC lectures are a real sleeping pill to me- i've to prepare sweets and drink coffee to keep myself from dozing off- and they're more effective that secondary school additional mathematics lessons! I miss my secondary school!
You've got to attend my physic tutorial lesson today; the teacher spoke so softy and she kept on pacing to-and-fro the front of the classroom. Remembering this makes me miss Mr Gwee's lessons. His lessons are always a real joy to attend with Darren always trying to outdo him and Yee Tien making a fool of himself everytime.[sigh*...Good memories...]
2:20 AM
